GOODBYE BRUCE jenner!
Via: Vanity Fair
NEW YORK, N.Y.—Speaking publicly for the first time since completing gender transition, Caitlyn Jenner compares her emotional two-day photo shoot with Annie Leibovitz for the July cover of Vanity Fair to winning the gold medal for the decathlon at the 1976 Olympics. She tells Pulitzer Prize–winning V.F. contributing editor and author of Friday Night Lights Buzz Bissinger, “That was a good day, but the last couple of days were better. . . . This shoot was about my life and who I am as a person. It’s not about the fanfare, it’s not about people cheering in the stadium, it’s not about going down the street and everybody giving you ‘that a boy, Bruce,’ pat on the back, O.K. This is about your life.”
Jenner tells Bissinger about how she suffered a panic attack the day after undergoing 10-hour facial-feminization surgery on March 15—a procedure she believed would take 5 hours. (Bissinger reveals that Jenner has not had genital surgery.) She recalls thinking, “What did I just do? What did I just do to myself?” A counselor from the Los Angeles Gender Center came to the house so Jenner could talk to a professional, and assured her that such reactions were often induced by pain medication, and that second-guessing was human and temporary.
Jenner tells Bissinger the thought has since passed and not come back: “If I was lying on my deathbed and I had kept this secret and never ever did anything about it, I would be lying there saying, ‘You just blew your entire life. You never dealt with yourself,’ and I don’t want that to happen.” Bissinger spent hundreds of hours with the man the world knew as Bruce Jenner over a period of three months, and then countless hours with Caitlyn, also attending the photo shoot with Leibovitz at Jenner’s Malibu home. Bissinger apologizes to Jenner for repeated pronoun confusion and asks whether she is sensitive about it. “I don’t really get hung up,” she tells him. “A guy came in the other day and I was fully dressed—it’s just habit, I said, ‘Hi, Bruce here,’ and I went, Oh fuck, it ain’t Bruce, I was screwing up doing it.” Bissinger speaks extensively with Jenner’s four children from his first two marriages—Burt, 36, and Cassandra, 34, with first wife Chrystie, and Brandon, 33, and Brody, 31, with second wife Linda—and describes an insensitive father who had been absent for years at a time. Jenner openly acknowledges mistakes made with them as Bruce, and expresses genuine regret. Says Burt, “I have high hopes that Caitlyn is a better person than Bruce. I’m very much looking forward to that.”
For the Jenner children, the issue of the transition has become a non-issue. They were already aware of their father’s identity as a woman when he told them individually about the transition—Burt and Cassandra had learned from their mother roughly 20 years earlier, when they were 13 and 11; Brandon had assumed it because of the obvious physical changes he had observed; and Brody was told by his mother when he was 29. They tell Bissinger they feel both happiness for their father and inspiration at Jenner’s bravery, and they all still see their dad as their dad regardless of any gender label. Brandon said he was a little taken aback when he saw Caitlyn for the first time after surgery and she pulled her top up to reveal her new breasts. “Whoa, I’m still your son,” he reminded her.
Despite the renewed relationship with their father, the Jenner children have refused to participate in Caitlyn’s docu-series for the E! network, set to debut this summer, forgoing financial gain in favor of preserving their father’s legacy. Initially, Caitlyn was “terribly disappointed and terribly hurt,” but has come to accept their decision. For her part, Caitlyn is prepared for the criticism that it’s a publicity stunt: “‘Oh, she’s doing a stupid reality show. She’s doing it for the money. She’s doing this, she’s doing that.’ I’m not doing it for money. I’m doing it to help my soul and help other people. If I can make a dollar, I certainly am not stupid. [I have] house payments and all that kind of stuff. I will never make an excuse for something like that. Yeah, this is a business. You don’t go out and change your gender for a television show. O.K., it ain’t happening. I don’t care who you are.”
Jenner tells Bissinger that since the Diane Sawyer interview aired “it’s exciting to go to the mailbox, because I get letters every day from all of these people from all over the world.” One of them was addressed “Bruce Jenner, Malibu, California,” as if she had become her own country. Bissinger writes that Caitlyn seems happy and relaxed, with a sense of purpose and confidence. She can’t wait when she goes out now to tell the paparazzi to “make sure it’s a good shot,” instead of asking patrons to help shield her from them in the parking lot of the local Starbucks. She looks forward to more girls’ nights “where everybody is treating you the same way. You can talk about anything you want to talk about. You can talk about outfits. You can talk about hair and makeup, anything you want. It becomes not a big deal.” She says that on the E! series she will focus on ways of lowering the rates of suicide and attempted suicide in the transgender community, among other issues.
Jenner tells Bissinger that Bruce was “always telling lies.” (She even describes doing public appearances after winning the gold medal, where “underneath my suit I have a bra and panty hose and this and that and thinking to myself, They know nothing about me. . . . Little did they know I was totally empty inside.”) Caitlyn, she says, “doesn’t have any lies.” “I’m not doing this to be interesting. I’m doing this to live,” Jenner tells Bissinger. She then jokes, “I’m not doing this so I can hit it off the women’s tee,” but she does tell Bissinger that on her E! show she plans to do a segment in which she sees if she can still hit a golf ball 300 yards off the tee, even with her very ample breasts.
BRUCE & KRIS JENNER:
WHO THEY WERE TOGETHER AND WHO THEY ARE NOW APART
This isn’t new news but it certainly isn’t old news! Caitlyn Jenner is beautiful and definitely brave for finally choosing to live life and not exist in it. It is a mix of emotions because for the past 40 years we have known Bruce Jenner to be a golden athlete due to his accomplishments in the Olympics in the 70’s, and for the last 10 years we have seen him on Keeping up with the Kardashians, and be Bruce the father to four kids, Burt, Cassie, Brody and Brandon from two previous marriages, and be the step father to the Kardashian clan – Kourtney, Kim, Khloe and Rob, and blending it all with his two kids with Kris Jenner, Kendall and Kylie. To now, blossoming into a woman before our eyes. What makes it a little harder to take all in, is the fact that we have seen him on nine seasons be a man, and now the tenth season he is a woman. In an instant we went from watching him on their reality serious for years be a mans man with a pony tail playing golf, racing cars and helicopters to now suddenly, seeing him as a woman playing with makeup, with long curls and highlights in her hair and pink nail polish. It is a sudden transition to everyone meeting Caitlyn, but as we have learned from Bruce he has kept Caitlyn hidden and has battled with both lives for many years. You also can’t help but think of his kids, especially the younger ones Kylie and Kendall and his little grandchildren. I can only imagine what goes through their minds; do we not have a father anymore? What do we call her…mom, dad or Caitlyn? Grandpa now looks like a Grandma…I mean, the list can go on, you get the point.And for Kris Jenner, who is probably questioning her entire life and marriage with this man…It’s definitely a huge sense of loss for everyone in the family. However, at the end of it all you think to yourself…to not be who you are, and who you want to be and not be able to express yourself and live the life you want, is a huge waste of who you are and of life. You are only given just one life do what you want to do, wear what you want to wear, eat what you want to eat, and be who you want to be. As a society we are also not educated enough on transgenders and I think it’s a great lesson for all of us to learn more about what they all go through and how it feels to be disconnected with the body you were given and not chosen. I can’t imagine looking in the mirror and feeling as though I am not supposed to be the person staring back at me.
Only thing I didn’t quiet understand is when he contradicted himself in his 20/20 interview with Diane Sawyer and his E! Special About Bruce. He said he recently decided to make the transitions, then he says he has been in the process of doing so for years, he then says he has no plans to make any physical and sexual changes, then he says he is asexual and not gay, but if Kris was okay with it he would still have been married, and that he still likes women but he isn’t a lesbian and along with many other contradictions that made it hard to understand him/her fully. I also don’t like that he has a reality show coming up documenting his transition from Bruce to Caitlyn. It was typical and I know it’s in the Kardashian/Jenner blood to be fame hungry, but I kind of wished Bruce who hated the spotlight, didn’t become Caitlyn, who has been waiting for this moment to steal all the thunder. Like Bruce said “All along I had the greatest storyline. I had the story.” The family is most certainty a pop culture phenomenon. It never ends. If their light dims, one will end up pregnant with a rapper while still married to a basketball player, and when those headlines begin to fade, Kourtney gets knocked up again, or Kim gets naked again, and again, and again and just when you think we have had enough for a bit…Kylie will go in for the kill and go to her instagram to put up very inappropriate pictures at just 17. Now Kim announces she’s pregnant with baby #2 and Bruce takes it away by revealing Caitlyn. I can bet that Caitlyn will become the face of certain fashion houses and makeup brands and will ink many lucrative deals and have a huge impact in many ways.
As Bruce Jenner fades away, I can only hope his legacy in the Olympics won’t be erased in history, as Caitlyn Jenner rises, becomes the new normal and make history for the human kind to live the life you want and not what others want for you. And how fascinating it is, that one person gets to live two great lives as both a male and female all in one lifetime. Good bye Bruce, and heyyyyyyyyyyyyyy girl hey Caitlyn! And all this time when I would see old pictures of Bruce I would think he was so handsome, why did he have all that plastic surgery done to his face? he looked terrible but all along it was to transform into a woman…and it was worth it, because she sure makes a beautiful woman!
PS. The memes that have been created online are hilarious!! Here are my faves.
Kris Jenner has been keeping herself busy with her boyfriend who is a tour manager for Justin Bieber. You can’t help who you love but can I be honest and say she looks ridiculous with him. She is 60 and he is in his 30’s. She tries way too hard to not only act and dress youthful but to keep up with her daughters. They look like the older version of Kim and Kanye! They just don’t look right together. What do you think?